So I'm still on the path to getting pregnant. My doctor really isn't helpful but I can't expect him to work miracles for me to have babies. It almost looks like a far dream of having a big family. Meanwhile, my sister in law asked me to help her baby shop since she has no clue what to do for her first expected child. I, still am waiting for my first too, but since I've done so many baby showers in the past she thought that I would be able to help her. I always thought that the next time that I go baby shopping for baby that it would be for me. Looking over my selfishness I agreed to go. I thought that it would be fun to shop for my nephew! The lack of interest that my sister in law had was such a drain that I kept thinking to myself why is she not wanting to buy the whole store!!!! I think I was more excited then she was!!!! It just gets me so angry. When will it be me...... We ended up not completing the baby trip because she was "too tired" and she didn't even buy anything! Not a darn thing...... two months and minus the days till she's due..... I know I would be so excited if it was me... I'm still waiting...... Hello Ovulation...... where in the world are you?
Monday, August 15, 2011
Friday, July 15, 2011
My official cycle to TTC... so excited....
It's been a long wait but finally I can start to officially start trying to conceive again... There are so many emotions that are passing through me I almost feel like I'm about to burst. I finished the last of my Birth Control Pills that were given to me to trick my body to go back to a semi-regular cycle after the miscarriage. I'm on my 3rd day of my cycle and am so anxious to know if this time my body would cooperate with me. I have my OPK's (Ovulation Prediction Kit) out and ready to test from day seven. I really don't know when to start testing but I figure after my period I should just start just so that I don't miss those crucial two days that our bodies are to supposed to ovulate. Till then......
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
My finished knitted blanket
The "lamb" was added for the flare! This was soooo much fun to do I started another blanket!
Monday, June 20, 2011
My little Fur-Baby......
I'm knitting a baby blankie!!
Found this great knitting pattern for a baby blanket from TLC.com http://tlc.howstuffworks.com/home/free-knitting-patterns-for-baby-blankets2.htm
(I have the pdf of the pattern if you can't get to the site... Just contact me and I can send it to you) This blanket will turn out to be about 30.5" x 34" and I used a 50% cotton and 50% acrylic blend... Love Love Love.......
I know... I know... I'm not expecting yet but I needed something to keep me occupied! Seems like I could get started on another blankie from the rate that my body is working.... But in any case... I LOVE how this is turning out!
Monday, June 13, 2011
Does she want to be like me?
Maybe it's just me but I feel like my sister-in-law is trying to be like me. I'm not trying to say that I'm superior than anybody but when there are many things that are similar it freaks me out!
I hope that you don't judge me but I just need to get it out of my system.
It started out that my DH brother married his wife after meeting her for less then a month combined. They got married in the short period of time but none the less I was very happy for them. She came to the US and then I find out that her Birthday is two days before me (July 10th and mine is July12). So the birthday's could have been a bit more seperated. Then I find out that she is in a similar job related field. Then she started to get all touchy feelly over my DH (really get your paws off my man) I asked my husband if he realized it and he did but thought it was an Australian thing. So he told her that he felt uncomfortable. Really she should be touching her man and leaving mines alone. Then she started to dress my brother in law like my husband!!!!! For one.... my DH is more to age and his brother has his own style that when you see him dressed differently you startt o wonder. My borther in law was complaining about how his pants were fitting and that she had picked it out for him..... She told me that she and her DH were having issues and that they were not going to start a family anytime soon.... My DH and I announced that we were expecting ( this was before March before my MC) and we announced it by doing scrabblr like pieces and having them solve it to say "We're pregnant". She said "I was going to do this when I tell everyone that I'm pregnant!" (um... Yeah you were). We were so excited because this was going to the first grandkid on both sides of the family! Two weeks later I miscarried they announced at a family dinner that they were expecting... TWO WEEKS later after my loss!!!!! My miscarriage was still in my mind and she announced to everyone not even 6 weeks... I mean she didn't even have her ultrasound yet..... Maybe she would feel a little sensitive to my feelings... Guess not! She did say that she was not ready and that she had to resolve some issues with her husband... What happened to that? Maybe there is a little competition???? Or is it my evil side thinking this? She said to me...."you know... we weren't even trying" I was sooooo livid!!!! Go ahead and rub it in my face!
To add a cherry to the top of all this.... before the whole pregnancy ever happened we had a casual conversation of what we would name our kids.... I told her that we had already picked out a boys name and when we said it she said "I was going to name my son that!" (Oh Hell No.... Is Jayden really common????) So now fast forward to today.... she is going to find out the sex of her baby and if it's a boy I would like to see what she would name him..... Whatever happens.. boy or girl.... this will be mny niece/ nephew... and I can't hate that!
I can't believe that I can't brush this off my mind.. It's been three month but I still feel so bitter.....
Thanks for reading/ listening! I really needed to vent and let this all out or I would just burst!!!!
I hope that you don't judge me but I just need to get it out of my system.
It started out that my DH brother married his wife after meeting her for less then a month combined. They got married in the short period of time but none the less I was very happy for them. She came to the US and then I find out that her Birthday is two days before me (July 10th and mine is July12). So the birthday's could have been a bit more seperated. Then I find out that she is in a similar job related field. Then she started to get all touchy feelly over my DH (really get your paws off my man) I asked my husband if he realized it and he did but thought it was an Australian thing. So he told her that he felt uncomfortable. Really she should be touching her man and leaving mines alone. Then she started to dress my brother in law like my husband!!!!! For one.... my DH is more to age and his brother has his own style that when you see him dressed differently you startt o wonder. My borther in law was complaining about how his pants were fitting and that she had picked it out for him..... She told me that she and her DH were having issues and that they were not going to start a family anytime soon.... My DH and I announced that we were expecting ( this was before March before my MC) and we announced it by doing scrabblr like pieces and having them solve it to say "We're pregnant". She said "I was going to do this when I tell everyone that I'm pregnant!" (um... Yeah you were). We were so excited because this was going to the first grandkid on both sides of the family! Two weeks later I miscarried they announced at a family dinner that they were expecting... TWO WEEKS later after my loss!!!!! My miscarriage was still in my mind and she announced to everyone not even 6 weeks... I mean she didn't even have her ultrasound yet..... Maybe she would feel a little sensitive to my feelings... Guess not! She did say that she was not ready and that she had to resolve some issues with her husband... What happened to that? Maybe there is a little competition???? Or is it my evil side thinking this? She said to me...."you know... we weren't even trying" I was sooooo livid!!!! Go ahead and rub it in my face!
To add a cherry to the top of all this.... before the whole pregnancy ever happened we had a casual conversation of what we would name our kids.... I told her that we had already picked out a boys name and when we said it she said "I was going to name my son that!" (Oh Hell No.... Is Jayden really common????) So now fast forward to today.... she is going to find out the sex of her baby and if it's a boy I would like to see what she would name him..... Whatever happens.. boy or girl.... this will be mny niece/ nephew... and I can't hate that!
I can't believe that I can't brush this off my mind.. It's been three month but I still feel so bitter.....
Thanks for reading/ listening! I really needed to vent and let this all out or I would just burst!!!!
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