My new doctor appointment recap....

So I finally met with a new doctor on Sept 7th. My initial feeling was excitement because I really wanted to get a fresh set of eyes to tell me what is wrong with me. Then it hit me once I stepped foot into the waiting room.... Thoughts of will they be ready for me... will they understand the journey that I have been through to this point... will the nurses/midwives be friendly... is the doctor going to be patient and listen to me....
My appointment was for 2:45pm and when I got there I had to fill out all the paperwork that is required for new patients. There were so many forms and took a while to finish and the wait was so long. I was able to watch the full hour of "The Ellen Degeneres Show" (I truly love her show) which started at 3pm. This means that I was sitting in the waiting room for a good hour till I got called to the back waiting room but at least I was able to watch the 1300th episode of Ellen :D. I had the usual weigh in and blood pressure taken and then waited for another 20 min in the exam room....
The nurse asked me if I had any records that I took from my previous doctor's office and I said no because I figured that they would have done that. The Doctor came in to see me with no records to go off of. I had a feeling that something like that would have happened so before I came in for the appointment I printed out my BBT charts from the past few months and created a timeline of my cycles and the miscarriage (I know.. what a nerd right?) He said based on what I provided it seems as though I have a luteal phase defect causing the anovulatroy cycles. He said that he won't know for sure till he receives all of the records from my previous doctors. As for my miscarriage he said that I might have needed some assistance with the use of progesterone suppository but again he needed to see my past records. :( All I provided were the HCG levels not thinking that the progesterone levels were of any importance. So ladies ask for both when you get your bloodwork during the phases of your present/ future pregnancies....
When I asked if the light spotting at CD44 (which lasted for 12 days) was the start of a new cycle he said no assertively saying that it's the remnants remaining in the lining of the uterus.
He suggested that I start of with Provera to jump start my cycle and follow up with 150mg of clomid to jump start ovulation again.
There was no physical exams taken so I hope that is normal for a first Doctor visit.
Fingers crossed for me! Let's hope that he can help me figure out where the missing screw is.....

I just broke up with my "Doctor"

I always hate that when you get settled in a new office setting and all your files are up to date and you befriended the staff that you get that feeling that this Doctor can not help you anymore. My current ob/gyn was good but after seeing him for about a year and a half I just felt like I was not going anywhere. There seems to be no answers or explanations as to why I am infertile or why I can't get pregnant. He started to get very short with my questions that the last visit I was so annoyed about my situation and the way he dealt with my concerns I got a little teary eyed. The line was drawn but didn't have the nerve to push myself to see another doctor. I thought that I would have a chance that I would ovulate on my own and become pregnant without any assistance. Reality, struck me and after 43 days in the cycle with no signs of ovulation I think it's about time I put on my brave pants and make "the call". Well... I didn't really call my current doctor but I called a new one in hope that they would do all of the leg work to get my record files. Hopefully I have found one that can work with me and my issues.
Fingers Crossed and hope that my September 7th appointment date turns out to be a smooth transition.

Anovulatory cycles - I never knew it existed!

I was coming into this cycle with an open mind and very optimistic about the possibility that this could be my time to carry a baby. Well... 36 days into the cycle and there was no sign of an ovualtion. I've found out that you can have a cycle and not ovulate (realease an egg). Your body could be gearing up to but then decide that it's not going to. This is what I think my body is experiencing. Not what I really want and hoping that it's not happening to me.

Here's some things that I've read....
A woman may gear up to ovulate more then once in her cycle but not actually ovulate each time. Sometimes a woman will have an ovulation test show up positive more than once during her cycle; however, a positive ovulation test does no guarantee that ovulation will occur. Women can gear up to ovulate and then not actually release of an egg.

If you notice multiple patches of ewcm on your chart but your temperatures do not show a clear thermal shift then you may be having anovulatory cycles. What this means is that your body is trying to ovulate, which is why you are seeing the patches of ewcm, but for some reason you are not ovulating. During a typical ovulation chart you will see ewcm followed by a temperature shift and a drying up of cervical mucous. You should feel dry after you ovulate. This is one way to confirm that ovulation has occured. If you are having patches of CM but you are not seeing a clear biphasic chart, it could mean that you are not ovulating.

Still waiting for my turn...

So I'm still on the path to getting pregnant. My doctor really isn't helpful but I can't expect him to work miracles for me to have babies. It almost looks like a far dream of having a big family. Meanwhile, my sister in law asked me to help her baby shop since she has no clue what to do for her first expected child. I, still am waiting for my first too, but since I've done so many baby showers in the past she thought that I would be able to help her. I always thought that the next time that I go baby shopping for baby that it would be for me. Looking over my selfishness I agreed to go. I thought that it would be fun to shop for my nephew! The lack of interest that my sister in law had was such a drain that I kept thinking to myself why is she not wanting to buy the whole store!!!! I think I was more excited then she was!!!! It just gets me so angry. When will it be me...... We ended up not completing the baby trip because she was "too tired" and she didn't even buy anything! Not a darn thing...... two months and minus the days till she's due..... I know I would be so excited if it was me... I'm still waiting...... Hello Ovulation...... where in the world are you?

My official cycle to TTC... so excited....

It's been a long wait but finally I can start to officially start trying to conceive again... There are so many emotions that are passing through me I almost feel like I'm about to burst. I finished the last of my Birth Control Pills that were given to me to trick my body to go back to a semi-regular cycle after the miscarriage. I'm on my 3rd day of my cycle and am so anxious to know if this time my body would cooperate with me. I have my OPK's (Ovulation Prediction Kit) out and ready to test from day seven. I really don't know when to start testing but I figure after my period I should just start just so that I don't miss those crucial two days that our bodies are to supposed to ovulate. Till then......

My finished knitted blanket

The "lamb" was added for the flare! This was soooo much fun to do I started another blanket!

Pepper's first time swimming!

Look at what a natural she is.... :)