My feelings all so mixed with fear and excitement. I'm wishing that this will be my christmas miracle. I tested on an ovulation prediction kit by clearblue on November 14, monday, and it came up positive for possible ovulation in the next 24-48 hours. I made sure that I covered my basis as far a baby dancing goes, drank Red Raspberry Leaf Tea (good for strengthening the uterus lining), drank Chojoto tea (good for infertility), ate foods that would enhance progesterone, took calcium chews, and took my prenatal vitamins. I could only wish that all my efforts would pay off. Don't you know that on November 27, 2011, Sunday, I found out on my First Response pregnancy stick that there were two dark lines.... Yes... two lines make a Positve!
I was so excited and went in on Monday for my bloodwork for my beta and progesterone levels. Made the appointment to see my Dr for Wednesday but he was booked so I then made the appointment to see the Midwife instead. I wanted to go in as soon as possible to make sure that I can ensure a healthy pregnancy. The midwife, Shirley, saw my results from the bloodwork and didn't seem impressed with the numbers. She said that my progesterone was 20 which was good but my Beta level was too low from now to the time of my last cycle (10.26.11). At 4.5 weeks I had a beta level of 76. In a way she was telling me that this was not a viable pregnancy and even though the "stick" showed positive the bloodwork numbers were too low... So she tells me. My heart dropped and my excitement turned to saddness... But how could she have known just by looking at the first set of betas? I have go in for more bloodwork Friday and then again on Tuesday and then make an appointment to get my results. I'm hoping that this number doubles the way that it's supposed to. They say that your Betas are supposed to double every 48 hours. I guess it may have been standard policy for her to say "if you start bleeding... you will need to go in to the emergency room". Like that was supposed to make me feel any better leaving the office. Please Let This Be My Christmas Miracle!